Crafting space for writing

I am struggling with my expectations. The autumn has been challenging, as I have experienced several conflicts of culture vs rules, from both sides - from evoking rules to get what I want and from trying to call culture superior. In both cases, the cause, in my opinion, mattered. But as a result, I have been drained. I am not caring much about my work, my colleagues, and myself. Conflicts are hard to handle, and they draw on our limited energies. Hence, less writing.

My space for writing is precious and precarious - everything else seems to override it. And now, I am trying to craft space for myself. I am trying to create the mental calm and the headspace that would allow my writing to come forward.

Some of the things I try to do:

1.  Brain dump - I need to get the nitty-gritty of the everyday activities to be on the side. I don't need to resolve every single issue on my to-do list. I need to put them aside until I write.
2. I am putting writing on my calendar. It is there, I promise. I have my Tuesday and Friday morning co-writing spaces; I just need to show up to those. They have been overridden more often than not in the past weeks. I need to honour my commitments—one hour at a time. 
3. Stop spinning my wheels. When writing hour is here, I need to know what I do. I need to have my small tasks, make a plan and stick to it. 
4. Finally, I need to forgive myself. And that is perhaps the hardest. I need to say - it is ok, these months have been hard, but now, there is a new week, a new day. We start again from the beginning. Paced. Slow. One session at a time. One small task at a time.

And one blog post at a time. Back to writing and back to finding joy in the process.